Tuesday night

Hey folks. I don't really know how to write this one, because I am not really sure how to summarize today. First, some praises. Dee Dee definitely felt better today, and was able to get the octreatide scan done today. She thought of my brother during the scan, because Randy is fairly claustrophobic and this one lasted three hours, with her in a device that was inches from her face the whole time. The results basically confirmed....everything we already knew. She has stomach things and a lymph thing.

We met with the surgeons this afternoon. The stomach surgeon adamantly insists that the stomach tumors are not that big a deal. He wants to watch them every year, essentially forever, but that is all he wants to do.

I think we started to feel a little too happy, because when the chest surgeon came in his news was more than a little deflating. He looked at everything, and said, "That node is no good, and has to come out." He feels that it is as large as an egg. He discussed the possibilities, and while he felt that it was most likely carcinoid, it could be a lot of other things. On that list are breast cancer, lung cancer, and lymphatic cancer.

He wanted to do the surgery tomorrow. This would be a major surgery, with a lot of pain and a fair bit of risk, because it is in contact with two very important nerves (one to her vocal cords, one to her diaphragm, which controls breathing), and it is adjacent to her aorta and her heart. If it is cancerous, then it may be difficult to remove because it will be "attached" to everything it touches. She will be in the hospital for 3-5 days, with a lot of pain. She will have a drainage tube in her side, and until it stops draining she can't leave.

Because of the time of day, we had about 30 minutes to decide. We prayed, cried, and talked. Medically, it made sense to do it here. It is the fastest way to find out the answer; it guarantees that the same pathologist would look at both the stomach tumor slides and the lymph slides; we really liked the stomach guy here (Thompson); lots of reasons.

We decided to come home. If everything goes well, she preferred to have it done at home, where we have friends and family. More, though, we didn't prepare emotionally for major surgery. We didn't feel that we had adequately prepared our kids for Mom having that level of surgery. Bottom line, Dee Dee needed one more very special hug with her kids before a surgery that big. She told me she would follow my decision, but I could see in her eyes and hear in her voice that the thought of doing the surgery tomorrow was hurting her deeply. In the end, that was all I needed; we are coming home. We'll meet with the Duke surgeon next week on Thursday, and have surgery sometime after that.

So all the medicine here is done now. Our flight is not until Thursday, so we will try to fill the hours until then. There is not a lot of site-seeing to do here in beautiful Rochester, MN. We will continue to praise Him for His mercy, and His goodness. We will continue to trust Him as our Father who loves us perfectly. We will count the hours until we finally know what the node is all about. We pray that it might still be something other than cancer, and that she would not need more surgery or chemo/radiation. Thank you for your prayers and love over the past month (which, by the way, has actually lasted about 6-7 years), and especially these last few days.

Tony